THE FEVER

"Broken Faces" - ( a sketch from my early journal )

Have you ever felt being lonely in the middle of a crowd? Being alone is quite bearable but being lonely is something else. People babbling in coffee shops and restaurants and garbled speeches slippering through your ear. You hear people all around you, once in a while echoing laughters in the background and giggles made by young girls being teased by their spouses. Your eyes just mingle amongst the crowd but you don`t really see and couldn`t care less. You feel like you want to recluse yourself from everything else. You just want to stay there in the crowd and keep quiet in one corner. You can`t quite pinpoint if you are feeling good or bad. You don`t want to talk to anyone at that time. Not that you have any problems with anyone but you just want to be left alone. It is like covering yourself in a blanket on a misty cold morning.

Where are your thoughts at that time? You feel the cold sensation running down your spine. It is like the chill that you get at the beginning of a fever. Comfortably numb. Maybe it is the beginning of a fever after all.